I can’t sleep.
I thought I was just catching up with my reading, having had a busy day, but when I was ready to get my much needed rest, the picture in my head wouldn’t go away.
I now have to stay awake because I am actually horrified. I’m even scared and I don’t know why.
My son was watching a Leonardo Di Caprio movie. I don’t know the title. My husband even joined him. I wasn’t bothered at first as I was busy with the dishes and laundry.
The chores got done and I was ready for the blog world. We have an open plan set up – kitchen, dining and lounge. I couldn’t avoid the TV. I should have moved to the bedroom.
Leo’s character was talking to his wife. He asked where the kids were. She said at school. He said it was Saturday and there was no school. She said not in her school or something like that. And he jumped on to the lake or whatever body of water that was.
I can’t say the rest.
But the 2 kids were no more.
I hate that!
Both my husband and 20-year old son said that it happens in real life. That’s even worse.
I wanted to cry. But I didn’t. They would think I’m crazy.
Leo’s character shot his wife. (I don’t know the actress. I thought she looked like Taylor Swift.)
I would do the same. I would kill whoever harm my children, especially my little princess. I won’t say the other, more awful words. Too scary.
Crimes committed against children who can’t defend themselves must be punishable by the worst slow torture there is, to end with death. And even that cannot erase what’s been done. It’s not a Christian thing to think and say I know but I am a mother.
I shouldn’t think about it. I wouldn’t know what to do. That would be the worst thing ever.
I must just pray.
I want to sleep but I can’t.
I can only pray.
Why are some people so evil?
Why must there be evil?